January
Welcome to the new calendar year. Before you start to push yourself into a new direction, let’s agree that we can take this slow.
You do not need to change your life in day.
Your next idea doesn’t need to come in the next 30 minutes.
You are alive and constantly evolving.
Choose to take it easy.
(Themes) Yoga. Hike. Creativity hour. Journal. Dance. Explore. Micro-adventure. Inspiration. Create for self. Free write.
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January witnessed through fragments of a personal journal:
January 03
“Thank you for listening. I appreciate seeing the pink sky in the morning. Sitting down to paint feels so odd. I think it has been a year. Thank you for coming back. I kept my cool. No more catastrophizing. Be sure to give yourself, me, credit because no matter the challenges or the obstacles, I still have faith in my ability to overcome and triumph. So take care— eat and go for it again tomorrow. *Remember, there is someone somewhere hiding in their car from their loved ones.”
January 04
“…I promise to slow down and enjoy this. I love you mommy. We got new pots and pans today. Everything is OK. I see magic in my life. Thank you for falling into place…Today I invite good and I allow it too. I am choosing to uplift myself and move forward. Thank you. Thank you for encouraging me. Rest is essential. I rest.”
January 05
“Allowing alignment to happen will only be uncomfortable if I resist. I choose to flow. I want to feel safe, feel love, feel my heart soar when I walk. Than you for the sunrise and the bowl of noodles. I enjoy watching things come into alignment for me. I am not the storm I am the lighthouse. I feel with this new found strength and clarity that I am in my body. I am here. Present and looking forward with support from my past experiences propelling me into alignment with my dreams. I feel safe to be here. Like my anxiousness is now only excitement for what is next. I am grateful for my choices, and I am not trying to squish myself into a predetermined mold. I am finding me, supporting me, and enjoying me. I have grown into a person who doesn’t wait to have her needs met, I am capable of meeting my own needs.
I allow feelings to pass through me- they are a sign of all the good coming to me. I am alive. Building momentum. Grief, a sign of the distance between what was and where I am going. Allowing myself to be liberated. I choose to flow. Grief is proof that I loved. I love. I can grieve without longing to return to those who were lost along the way. I trust that our time together was enough. I am enough. Congratulations! This is your win. I flow. I have self-love, self-respect, compassion, ease, kindness. I have everything I need. My loving universe provides for me. All I have to do is be here. Ascension symptoms: my stomach was hurting before I cried— Now I am healing. Thank you for release. Thank you for surrender. Thank you for allowing me to win. This is freedom.”
January 06
“I honor the essence of who I am, beyond anything tangible. I acknowledge that love alone does not always align people’s paths or heal the things they are carrying. It doesn’t mean their love- My love - was not real or not transformative. There’s more to it: choices, timing, circumstance. And when love comes from place of unhealed wounds or misaligned needs, it can be hard to fully receive or sustain, no matter how deeply it is felt.
My love for myself, it is different, not asking anything of me. No dependent on what comes next. Pure admiration. Pure devotion. Untangled from outcomes.
This love is enough— unconditional. Growing resilience and emotional grace for others begins at cultivating it for myself. Patiently holding my own flaws, fears, and inconsistencies with that grace and compassion. Experiencing how freeing it can be, how healing it is. And then being able to share it with others.
Resilience does not mean toleration harm or neglect.
It is recognizing when someone (myself) is showing up imperfectly but still sincerely vs. not showing up at all.
Discernment is part of that grace.
Ex. 1) I acknowledge their intention and effort, with their limited capacity due to their own resolved pain.
Ex. 2) (name redacted) actively made choices that crossed my boundaries and caused me harm.
These are two different stories/scenarios.
Now, I have gratitude for all that I learned about— it is important to have shared values and compatibility, to compliment— to hold/contain the love and the grace— with discernment. To navigate uncertainty with resilience, there must be deep alignment. I need safety, fulfillment, and emotional availability, and space to give & receive those needs. And I am committed to providing that to myself. I believe in myself to create, receive, and experience all that I need. I am in awe of my love. Living in my truth. Open to being fully known. I am the alchemist. This energy works for my highest good and greatest desires.
January 07
I am taking care of myself and enjoying my relationships to others…I have discernment and for that I am grateful. Applause for saying out loud what people don’t normally say. I accept that this is a consistency in my behavior.
Embracing that this causes a divide:
-people who are glad I said it and,
-people who are upset by it.
I saw a video about being uncertain of who you are without the views of others… IDK it bothered me. Like where did my sociology go? I consciously know that the knowledge was isolating me and was emotionally taking it’s toll. Did I give up activism? Was I ever carrying that on or was it just the intellectual aspect? I put the self-help books and all that down after school due to the fatigue. My reading comprehension level had to be high for academia. This was a choice I made for me and my health. Plus! I never enjoyed sociology people socially, or they were not my most memorable moments. I liked my professors because idolized their knowledge. I never got their phone numbers or desired to know them beyond the classroom— maybe that was in respect of the dynamic. Even now, I am uncertain about being friends with people older than me— it feels like its not “peer to peer" but I am older now, almost 30. Maybe this is a sign of a new chapter of more ambiguity in social spaces.
Thank you for sitting with me with this. I appreciate the quality time and the space to explore how I am feeling. I love you.”
January 08
“Ha, lovely. ‘It was the best of times and the worst of times.’ I finally got to laugh about the whole thing. Like I may actually be at peace with it. Like let it go and I am believing in the goodness of life again. Painting again. Trusting the process. I am really talented. I am really this good. I am actually the best thing that could happen. Thank you for being open to enjoying what I love again. Feels so good to paint. To call friends. To be loved. Truly, living in a lovely reality. I created this. ‘you make everything better,’ he said. And now I do it with people who truly pour into my cup. People who love me in a nourishing way. Thank you for letting go. You made the right choice.”
January 09
I breathe with ease— my life is easy. Being me is easy. I am creative and peaceful. Today, I am grateful to be able to clean my house. I am thankful that I can physically clean my space. Thank you for taking care of me. I have so much love and support and appreciation in my life. Friends. Family. I am wealthy. Thank you for all of this nourishment… There is no need to fix or analyze what is meant for me. This love I am receiving is meant for me. An invitation. I can be happy without trying. I am happy right now. Happy to experience the joy and the growth and the giggles. Thank you for allowing things to be this good. How good can it get?”
January 10
“Oh. It is almost 10pm and I just noticed today’s date. It snowed. Letting go of old patterns, healing from the past, and preparing to step into a new chapter with clarity. I am a lighthouse. ‘You are a light.’ Boldly and courageously facing what was hidden. Staying grounded in my inner peace. Dreaming big whil remaining emotionally connected to my inner truth. Aligning my personal goals with a larger purpose— my creativity and emotional authenticity are part of what will connect me to the life of peace and ease that I envision for myself. Expressing myself creatively and emotionally. I am falling in love with who I am, as I am, and embracing the joy of my current state without needing to fix or change anything. Ensures my actions align with my values and desires. This leads me exactly where I am meant to go.
*fear of living your dream life is normal— means I care deeply about what is next for me. I do not have to conquer everything at once; even small, intentional steps toward my dreams will build momentum and confidence. Release the need to fix or prove me.
There is nothing to fix. Only opportunities to live, create, and grow.
Let go of the need for perfection and focus on the joy of simply being yourself. I love you.
Thank you for celebrating even the small wins.”
trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding and all your ways submit to him and he will make your path straight Proverbs 3:5-6
above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. Proverbs 4:23
it is OK to set boundaries, to honor myself as God’s creation.
but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
God‘s timing brings renewal and change in ways we can’t anticipate.
I deserve relationships where I am cherished and honored as the wonderful person God created me to be.
Cast all your anxiety onto him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
I give my worries to God and I thank God for his guidance. Thank you, God.
The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. - exodus 14:14
Pause. Reflect and let God work on things you/I cannot control. The miracle comes when I trust God and step forward into faith, even when things seem impossible. Step back. Stop striving. trust God is moving for me. Be willing to take small steps. Trust the path. Rest is courage. Rest is faith. It is OK to pause, allow myself to rest. My actions align with my values and my long-term goals. I am in love with myself. Healthy decisions are acts of self love, not restrictions.
[reframe: It was not an authentic to love those people… It did not end how I had hoped, but I was myself all the way through— I was love. I am love.]
now I have freedom and safety from the care of others, from my self-care. I am safe and deeply cared for. Diligently cared for. Love does not come at the cost of neglecting myself. My value is not determined by my sacrifices.
January 11
my experiences shaped me, but I can change my perspective on them. I am warm; the way people are drawn to me, speaks volumes about my ability to connect. Being myself is a warm and loving experience. It is so wonderful being invited into the homes of friends and families, experiencing people be completely open to me with what feels like no effort at all. This is my superpower. I embrace this gift. I am appreciated for being myself. My presence is magic.
January 12
[Reframe “misfit” to recognizing myself as warm, magical presence. This is self-worth.] Embracing my incredible energy that I bring into this world. I am a magnetic and valuable presence in any space that I enter. Helping my inner child discover I have always been magical and welcome to be here. Rewriting the story with boldness and authenticity. Reinforcing the idea that my presence brings warmth and inspiration to everyone around me. As I take ownership of my narrative, I am not defined by how others have described me. I choose to see myself as magical warm and worthy.
‘You made the right choice.’
Seeing myself as someone who brings light and warmth into lives, allowing me to step confidently with authenticity. I’m a creative force. This is radical self love. Embracing all that makes me unique celebrating myself for who I am. Releasing the desire to conform releasing myself from limitations of others expectations. I am valued and loved for exactly who I am. I embrace my uniqueness with confidence and joy. Thank God for guiding me to a sense of wholeness and alignment with my true self. I can love without fear. To my inner child, I love you so much and so deeply. You are my guiding light. My only truth and loving you is my dream. Everything I do, a devotion to seeing you be yourself. We are safe. You are safe. Be here now. I promise whatever you do will be amazing. You are amazing. Being you as inevitable. Enjoy yourself.
January 13
I have truly entered a new chapter, leaving behind limiting beliefs of feeling small or unworthy. I am able to laugh with my memories now and adore all that I gained going through pain. I am an alchemist. Thank you for allowing me to see beyond my obstacles. Thank you for the lessons of discipline and discernment. Thank you for the opportunities to love myself through grief and disappointment. Thank you for removing me from people and situations that could not support this next evolution of me. Thank you for my strength and thank you for my grace. Thank you for teaching me how to speak to myself. Thank you for teaching me how to love myself unconditionally. Thank you for releasing me. Thank you for my freedom to explore creative spaces and encourage others to shine their light. Thank you for this path that leads to my greatest desires. I am open to receiving…. thank you for believing in me. Thank you to those who support me and are so respectful of my time. Thanks for asking how you can support me during my big feelings. Thank you for the kindness. Thank you for the art! Thank you for the creativity. Thank you for everything.
You made the right choice.
January 14
I am beloved! I’m pursuing art and art is pursuing me. Thank you art! I love you! Creativity hour feels better than my phone. I am free from the limiting loop.
January 15
It is OK to be discerning. You don’t have to give all your magic away just because people admire you. I deserve to feel safe, supported, and chosen for who I am. Not just the light that I bring to others. I recognize where I feel relief and where I do not. This is protect protecting my energy.
Finding balance: incorporating art into things I can enjoy immediately while still leaving room for bigger project projects. I am mastering being myself. This is embracing the moment.
[Reframe: it is natural to seek inspiration—> use of my phone is not back sliding, but taking in inspiration, filling my cup. Absorbing creative energy inspires new work. Art + emotion = life. Viewing the art of creation itself while allowing my process to continue unfolding. Enjoying the steps and trial & error. This is dedication!
Note: Be aware of Quick fixes vs steady growth; The vulnerable parts of building something real. Taking care with my craft, learning to give myself that same patience, and grace with my own growth. Indulgence + Discipline
Practice noticing perfectionist tendencies and returning to my agency. Experiencing alignment across all aspects of my life. Letting myself be vulnerable, naming my need for space. Trusting these small choices, lead me, align me.
So human; the pull between wanting to give love and care while needing space. Guilt around, saying no to offers of love while longing for it sometimes. Shame about growth when it means potentially outgrowing people or spaces that once brought comfort; many people struggle with this.
Acknowledging the way I used to create pressure to heal, grow, and change all at once.
Maybe I voiced this to people trying to get close to me: “don’t look at me for reflection because I can be painful. You will grow.”
Relationships need space to breathe.
January 16
Relationships need space. Everything is a relationship to something; relationship to art, a person, a place, a state of being, activities… Ex. “ being homesick” or “ feeling restless” or how often you go to the gym,..
I am an artist. I create. I make. I conjure. “ I need space.” OK.
Look at all the space I made.
Space to rest.
Space to create.
Space to work.
Space to grow.
Space to heal.
Space to breathe.
There’s nothing left to fix. There is only what you can create. The responsibility of sustaining this light of mine is not one that I take lightly.
Who I am without the “ problem solving” and being available to others in need of aid?
“You make everything better.” yes. It is true— through exploring my inner world, I bring my own warmth and magic wherever I go. It is this courageous act of presence that others look forward to welcoming into their space. Good thing I made space for that.
January 17
grounded in my internal growth perspective— reclaiming my narrative as something deeply personal
My life is not about anyone else. My life is from myself. Focus on my growth rather than dwelling on the short-comings of others. My reflection, my art, my voice are all powerful and intentional. Trusting it all speaks for itself. With gentleness, acceptance, and reassurance I am creating space for self expression. Creativity. Curiosity! Allowing myself to be a work in progress. I am my safe space. I welcome my messy and evolving parts of myself.
I am doing so well, just by being me. I do not have to be hard on myself to be loved or worthy. I am love. I am worthy. I see this reflected back to me. My reflection, powerful and intentional. Thank you for seeing it through. Thank you for your commitment. I am safe to rest, breathe, and just be.
Explore, play, and create with joy.
No pressure.
Celebrate you! Thank you for being in the room with me. Thank you for staying. Thank you for trusting me to be here with you. I love you so much. I am healing everyone around me with being myself. Leaving a trail of touched souls on my way home to myself. I am seen clearly..
January 18
I grow and evolve at my own pace. Relationships needs space to grow and evolve at their own pace. I am comfortable growing on my own. I can hold my hand while everything changes.
January 19
embracing individuality while participating in meaningful connections and relationships that align with my core values and meet my emotional needs. Maintaining balance with creative expression. Answering the question “ what kind of partnership will truly sustain me overtime?” Imagining building connection on roots of shared values. finding a sense of belonging in communities. Acknowledging that I thrive in relationships, where both partners maintain their individuality to respect boundaries and balance priorities. I enjoy connections that stimulate my mind and inspire growth. I value depth and shared vision.
*note: not drawn to conventional or stagnant partnerships
I must have a relationship that evolves, grows, and feels aligned with our values and goals.
[Reframe: missing those from the past is actually a reminder of what I am truly seeking: a deeper more sustainable connection.]
I am ready for love that feels aligned with my growth. I have many friends who share my interest and support me— reminds me that love exist in many forms..
I focus on nurturing my own needs, willingly loving myself, and feeling secure in my own company/care.
I am choosing connections that are aligned with my future, not my past. Looking for group/workshops and events that align with my passions meeting, like-minded people who inspire and uplift me. I deserve a love that is balanced sustainable and deeply connected. I honor my emotional needs and attract relationships that uplift me. I release the past with love and gratitude, creating space for connections that align with my values and dreams. I honor my individuality! And trust that the right partnership will find me when the time is right. Divine timing! Considering what does sustainable love looks like for me. This is love. This is growth.
(Prompt: Define your needs and non-negotiables.)
January 20
confident that I am building the life I love— relationships flow lovingly in my life. Hobbies, interest, creativity, connection, community: all thanking me for showing up authentically. I trust my instincts and embrace love that is steady, fulfilling, and aligned with my highest self.
January 21
welcome to a new chapter! Congrats on the inner growth. Courageously, stepping into new roles that align with my purpose. Emotional alignment with my professional goals to create a sustainable relationship with work and finances. I shine with individuality and innovative thinking. My intuition and ability to connect with others is one of my key strengths. My charm and self expression color me likable and engaging in new environments. Networking and building meaningful professional relationships. I have been quietly working towards this goal — I am ready to channel my drive into tangible success. The universe supporting me with opportunities for growth, learning, and career expansion. Developing new skills, exploring fresh perspectives and walking through open doors to bigger opportunities. Thank you for my ability to communicate and to think creatively. I share my ideas. I can take the lead and be collaborative projects. Entering roles where my unique perspective will be valued. Thank you for these opportunities that truly fit into my broader career goals.
(prompt: Define career goals: what do I want to learn? What do I want to achieve? any long term goals? Acknowledge personal skills *ex. Self-trust, being open to learning, celebrating small wins)
I am ready to embrace new opportunities with confidence and grace. My hard work and unique talents guide me towards success and fulfillment in my career.
Bring intention into actions: “Establish strong collaborative relationships with my team”
(action) positive feedback and acknowledgment
(action) communication, let them know of my working styles such as my directness that comes from a sense of urgency to be efficient.
I’m here to learn, grow, and contribute in meaningful ways. My intentions guide me into success and fulfillment.
January 22
I am doing so well! Actively processing my experiences rather than avoid avoiding them. Communicating my needs and prioritizing my well-being, even when it is difficult. Balancing self-care, friendships, and personal growth. Acknowledging that I need rest and have been honest about what I can and can’t give others. Life keeps changing and I am resilient! I engage in my growth, exploring new connections, and shedding old patterns, even when it is uncomfortable. I take risks, again. Which is a sign of my healing and evolving. I feel I’ve been intentional and kind to myself. Vocal. Certainly expressing my emotions and letting people in. Transparent with new connections and still able to connect with them. Happy to grow! Curious and knowledgeable about how to show up for myself.
Mindful of my phone usage *note: the weather in season changes can impact my usual routine or enjoyable activities
These are all hallmarks of someone, actively nurturing their well-being. Intentional vocal mindful. I am incredible! And being incredible is so easy to me.
January 23
It seems I can see these people for what they are without the rose colored glasses. Their inability to grow and take accountability would have made it impossible for me to have the partnership that I deserve. I recognize that leadership and emotional strength are essential to relationships. This person was fearful lacked leadership— although I am shocked by my new perspective because they used to move the moon and the stars to me…
I’m in a new era. This is growth and transformation. Stepping into emotional clarity, self-worth, and boundaries setting. Move past this idealized version of this person and seeing them objectively, recognizing their inability to meet my needs. I focus on what’s best for my emotional health and future rather than clinging to the past. This is courage to confront the truth about them and let go.
I have closed an emotional chapter. Freeing myself from the guilt and illusions that once kept me tethered to them. Encouraging myself to prioritize my own needs, creativity, and joy. Seeing relationships through the lens of mutual respect and intellectual alignment rather than one sided devotion. Expanding my sense of self-worth and grounding me in my values. Pushing me to recognize that I deserve a relationship where my needs are fully respected and met. I am ready to direct my energy towards what uplifts me rather than what drains me. Choosing alignment protecting my energy and focusing it on people and opportunities that are worthy of my time.
Confidence, boundaries, clarity; leaving familiarity and nostalgia behind. I am pursuing growth and sustainability.
Celebrate! Honor how far you’ve come: I’ve come so far breaking free from old patterns and emotional ties that no longer serve me. Trust my instincts to choose what feels stable and aligned as I navigate relationships and decide who gets access to my energy. Focus on what I’m building, ground myself in my long-term goals— build a life that reflects my values.
“Frequency February” :Creativity connection, prosperity, inspiration, authentic connection, art, community, sensual, and intellectual, expiration, immersion, writing, painting, crafting, connecting exploring new ideas, spaces and creative approaches.
Alignment means staying open to what inspires me even if it feels unfamiliar or unconventional. Being valued for shared creativity, and collective growth. Art workshops, communities, collaborative projects meeting people who reflect my values and inspire me to grow. Seek out new spaces. I give myself permission to focus less on what I have been through and more on where I am headed say yes to curiosity opportunities that feel exciting and inspiring, even if they push me out of my comfort zone.
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